Depressed tonight.... :-(

This has to be the most frustrating part of TTC so far. When we first decided we wanted to start TTC back in September, we had to wait until my cycle went back to normal after the depo. That was incredibly frustrating but at least I felt like there was a reason for what was happening. Now that I'm 6 days late and I've gotten yet another BFN, I'm wondering what the heck is wrong with me. Clearly I'm not going to get pregnant if I don't ovulate. Where is AF? I feel like sitting down and crying... It's worse than the 2ww because I don't even know if it'll just be 2 weeks! It might be longer, it might be shorter.

The unknown sucks.

I just want a baby... I want to be pregnant. My friends are pregnant and they're planning their nurseries and picking out names and talking about feeling the kicks. I want to be there!!! And I want to hold my baby and touch his soft skin and smell his little head.

I think I'll go to bed and cry now, okay?