Do you remember when we were little and birthdays were the most exciting day of the whole year? I think the higher the number gets, the less exciting they become... Tomorrow that number will be 23 for me. I'm excited in a way, but mostly just sad. I'm 23, another year has come and passed and I'm still not a mommy. There are only 9 years remaining until when I want to be done having all my kids. I don't feel happy and ready to party, I just feel old...
My co-workers laugh, oh you're not old... you're still a baby. I think it's not that I feel old as in elderly, I feel old for where I am in my life. By the time I was 23, I wanted to be a mom. That didn't work out because I married a guy who was 3 months younger than me. Sometimes when I make comments like that, he asks me if I wish I'd married someone older who had more money who could've made me a stay at home mom by now. It makes me feel bad when he asks that, because that couldn't be farther from the truth. I do wish I was a stay at home mom by now, but only to his kids. It's not that I wish I'd married a richer man, it's that I wish he was richer.
At least I still get presents. :-\
I 100% agree with you on the excitement of birthdays; i stopped enjoying mine after i turned 21.
ReplyDeleteI also agree with you on the wanting to be a mum... but, trust me from where i'm standing 23 is still young when it comes to starting a family. Having said this, i do still understand where you are coming from.
I hope that made sense.
Happy Birthday xx
23 is still young! I understand about the money issues and with wanting to be done having kids early. My goal was two or three kids and done by 30... probably not happening at this point (I'm 25). But nonetheless. Enjoy this time in your life and do those things that won't be as easy to do once kids do bless your life! :)
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