One sentence shatters it all: "low sperm count"

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I wasn't ready to share this news... DH has a very low sperm count. His sperm count is 8 million per cc. Sounds like a lot, but normal is 20 million to 100 million... And they prefer high end of normal. There's less than a 25% chance DH will ever get me pregnant naturally. We're scheduling an appointment to see the fertility specialist and hopefully get DH put on clomid. Sometimes that works, sometimes it doesn't. The next step would be an iui or a sperm donor, if what I've read on google is correct. I guess we'll find out when we see the new doctor... Which isn't until April. :-(

I just want a baby... I'm struggling with this news. I'm trying to put my happy face on for DH's sake because I don't want him to feel like its his fault or something. But I just want to curl up and cry.